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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2012|12:09 am]
Distant
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Out of sight. But never out of mind.
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(no subject) [May. 12th, 2012|11:08 pm]

I intend to disappear for a very, very, very, very, as a matter of fact, an extremely long time. This place is filled with people who don't care what happens to others. When I'm so intent on freeing others I must be trying to free some part of myself too. I came here to forget myself. I had the illusion that if I engaged in impersonal activities, I would get rid of myself somewhere. It disturbs me so much to think that perhaps my apparently impersonal activities actually represent a personal drama in which I myself is involved. That I am merely re-enacting my intimate drama through others, expressing it through others. I feel I have failed to escape from myself. Yet I have known all along that I failed in some way. Because I should have been content, alive, as people are when they give themselves. Instead I have often felt like a depersonalized ghost, a man without a self, a zombie. It is not a good feeling. It's like the old stories about the man who lost his shadow. 

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G o o d b y e .

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(no subject) [Apr. 2nd, 2012|11:49 pm]

I think I’m at a stage where, I have felt way too much or has been damaged that I’m beyond repair. & being beyond repair, I’m just like whatever. I can’t give any more hoots to anyone or anything anymore. I’m always so disappointed, I think I expect too much from this everchanging world. And chances are, I would have already been a let down to many others around me. & I learnt, don’t be needy, don’t demand, don’t ask, don’t expect, don’t assume, don’t ask. I like this feeling or rather am addicted to the kind of sadness/pain when I go home straight after school everyday & it’s like that very moment I walk out of school & I’m walking home, I feel so shut out from the world, I feel so alone, yet so carefree, like I’m all by myself now. Just me & my thoughts. It’s dangerous I admit. But it’s addictive. Being solitary is central to the art of loving. When we can be alone, we can be with others without using them as a means of escape. This loneliness will diminish when I plunge back into studying. But now, that false purpose is lifted & I am spinning in a temporary vacuum. I’m ignoring all the people I could know, shutting myself up in a numb defensive vacuum. My room is not my prison. I am. I’m just so sick & tired of this whole vicious cycle where people just come & go like seasons. And that's why I apologise, if I'm being a motherfucking selfish bitch by pushing everyone away. I need to be left alone. Or rather, for once, I'd be that being who leaves first before anyone else does.
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(no subject) [Mar. 15th, 2012|03:08 pm]
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Perfer et obdura; tolor hic tibi proderit olim

I hope you'll come across this post soon. That Latin quote, i live by it & i hope you would too. It means:
Be patient & tough; someday this pain will be useful to you.
I know how tiring/hard/hopeless life can be, and that everything's in a mess and how you can feel like a wreck and live in despair.
I want you to know
I want you to know
I want you to know that:

You are certainly one of the most beautiful being I've ever seen, wholey. Both inside out. It's such a pity you don't see that spark that's left in you, it might be flickering dimly but I promise you it's still there within you somewhere. And you shouldn't ever give up. Everyone's recovering, in some way or another. They have a bundle of different problems that are all tangled up with each other so that it's hard to unravel a single one. It may take a long time to undo them all, or something could trigger them to come unravelled all at once. It may take a very long time to undo them all, or something could trigger them to come unravelled all at once. It's kind of like that. I'm patient, and you should be too. Let's wait. Even if things are so tangled up, we can't do anything, we'll try not to get desperate or blow a fuse and start yanking on one particular thread before it's ready to come undone. You have to realise it's going to be a long process and that you'll work on things slowly, one at a time. It may take a very long time, I know, and even then you may not recover completely. I've thought of all of that, too. I'll just sit and wait for you to get better. Without deadlines or guarantees. I believe in you and you should have faith in yourself too. So instead of self destructing, think of this, or think of me maybe, and when you're in bed in the morning that you can wind your spring and tell yourself you have to live another good day.

Jamais oublie : Perfer et obdura; tolor hic tibi proderit olim
Never forget : Be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful to you.

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Yes. 



I know it's bad, right? 



You do, I feel as though you give a part of me that I've lost. I feel complete when I'm around you. Please stay.

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(no subject) [Mar. 11th, 2012|08:25 pm]

While I can’t have you, I long for you. I am the kind of person who would miss a train or a plane to meet you for coffee. I’d take a taxi across town to see you for ten minutes. I’d wait outside all night if I thought you would open the door in themorning. If you call me and say ‘Will you…’ my answer is ‘Yes’, before your sentence is out. I spin worlds where we could be together. I dream you. For me, imagination and desire are very close.
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(no subject) [Mar. 10th, 2012|09:45 pm]

I love you. Not maybe, not tomorrow, not someday, right now - at this very moment. I realized something. I need you. I trust you, I admire you, I want you. And you can be wrong a lot of the time, and we can fight, and get mad at each other, but nothing, nothing in this world can change the fact that I love you. And don't you ever fucking doubt that.
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(no subject) [Mar. 3rd, 2012|11:04 pm]

And I certainly wonder ...................

Can life get any better than this?
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Happy leap day [Feb. 29th, 2012|08:32 pm]

I can't keep up with your turning tables. I won't let you close enough to hurt me.

My brain is in a tempest, churning in every direction, erupting with incoherent thought. The fact is, one is stuck with oneself whenever one goes. Understanding myself or the world any better will not come as easily as the price of a freighter ticket. This hatefulness, this poison. I can't escape; it had followed me all the way. 
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(no subject) [Feb. 26th, 2012|09:41 pm]
I feel the fucking need to detach & disconnect myself from everyone. I'm not even kidding.
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Joy [Feb. 25th, 2012|12:13 am]
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Today was a pleasant day. Thank god it's fucking friday. Went out w simsterz hahaha watched Ghost Rider @ Vivo, it was good. I'm sorry i can't take you away from much today. But i'll try

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(no subject) [Feb. 21st, 2012|11:04 pm]

I'm tired/so fucking exhausted. CA starts in 2 days & my days are all hectic & filled with tuitions. I can't take a break now, this is only the beginning. I need to continue working hard, I won't give up now, not before when I've yet to barely start. I'm feeling the stress & I think it's taking over me. But it's okay. I know that it'll all be worth it if I put in my best. Good luck to me. Till then, x.
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Goodnight & goodbye to you [Feb. 20th, 2012|01:48 am]
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I guess goodbye means two things. It's either a happy ending & that I'll see the person again or it just means never till perhaps fate ever brings us together once more. And that's why I can't be sure with you cause our goodbyes, they might just be the last

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Withering [Feb. 18th, 2012|09:20 pm]

And if you feel the fading of the lightAnd you're too weak to carry on the fightAnd all your friends that you count on have disappeared
I'll be here, not gone, forever, holding on

All these thoughts of destruction are overwhelming me. Death| Escapism| Disintegration| Wreckage| Flight| Elude.
I think I'm going mad & even more ...... Mad. This is all too much for me to deal. I'm not built to cope with all this, I've given up long ago. Everything that happens is inevitable. This is more than me, what more can I handle when I can't even handle myself? Can't anyone realise how I'm changing everyday, how I just want to be left alone, how nothing's really getting any better or how much I'm losing myself & my sanity? But these few days, I've come to realise a few things too and that is everything is just full of uncertainties and we can't survive without any patience. I just can't comprehend so many things. It's life. There's nothing that can bring me back to life. It's beyond me, I can not carry the weight of a heavy world. So, goodnight. 

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(no subject) [Feb. 5th, 2012|05:56 pm]

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